365 days...since I last saw your face to face. You and your brother were sitting at my kitchen table eating your birthday dinner to celebrate your 18th birthday. It is unimaginable to me that I cannot pick up the phone and hear your voice. I wake up everyday feeling like I should be taking care of you and your brother. I should be calling you to see how your day was and nagging you to make sure you are doing everything you are supposed to. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that you both would now be watching over me. I wonder sometimes how I am not supposed to take care of you two..you both were such a part of my life...we grew up together. You boys are so special to me and we had so many fun memorable times. I know that I must focus on the big picture - this life is over in a blink of an eye and we will be together again. I was told in heaven one day is like 1,000 days and 1,000 days is like one. Before I know it things will be like they always were. This year has been the most challenging time in my life and never could I have imagined you and your brother would leave before me. The memories and messages help me get through each day. I came across a quote that I felt like you sent me: "You have not lived until you have done something for someone who can never repay you"
Your Gia is my pride and joy and I will raise her to know that she had wonderful parents who loved her but that Jesus just needed them more for something really special in heaven. That is my gift to you.
